Oh, to be a Teacher

I feel lonely.
The living quarters I have leave me nothing to desire. I can get meals from the arcology stock. I can get materials to make the meals and put what I haven't eaten in the arcology stock. When I move food, I would bring the uneaten food and put it in the arcology bank. I wonder if I have ever eaten the dishes I bring, but it's unlikely.

If I get bored I can use the simulator or listen to any of the books. I do it sometimes, it helps me sleep. A deep voice with neutral tones relaxes me just as much as any medicine, and I have a story to think about later. I wish I had somebody to talk about it.

Teachers can talk to so many people. They have a sort of fame, but they can interact with the ones they cater to. Movers of knowledge, but also makers of it. The students may even become friends, collaborators.

I think I don't regret what I did, even if the loneliness is harsh. Maybe in some years people will forget. Maybe I will be able to be a Teacher and I will talk to many people, have some friends. until someone recognises me. And then I'll have to be alone again for a long period of time. Maybe until I die.